Blackshard and Holding

we’re all responsible adults // human AU // DeanCas sexing (sort of; god, I tried)

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“Someone did this to him.”
“You’re angry.”
“Yeah. Dude broke my brother’s head.”
“He betrayed you, this ‘dude.’ He was your friend.”
“Yeah well, he’s gone.”

[…]

“Your friend’s name was Cass? That’s an odd name.”

[…]

“Am I Cass?”

[…]

“I don’t remember you.”

[…]

“Part of me always believed you’d come back.”

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Oh my god, Dean, I’m having problems right now. I don’t even know you know what you want from Cass.

Because the way the conversation goes, I’m pretty damn sure Dean doesn’t tell him that last line until they’re having the Castiel revelation-and-breakdown pow wow, since the second promo makes it clear Dean hasn’t jumped him with the knowledge that he’s from amnesia!Cass’ past.

But Dean, you are going to confuse the dear woobie and I can only HOPE the Destiel moment comes around the last line. Because Cass /does/ sound shaken when he asks “Am I Cass?” to which there will be either an affirmative or a not-denying it from Dean, so if the last line is part of some kind of “I forgive you,” deal…

…well, Cass does sort of have to apologize for Sam’s head. Because that was a biggie.

I can’t handle wondering.

Just don’t attack him, Dean. Just…don’t do that.

“off to college” time // Human AU

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SOMEHOW SKIPPED THIS EPISODE

One of the KEY EPISODES OF THE SEASON

Fuck me.

AND IT’S THE IN-THE-ASS EPISODE. Plus side, MORE MISHA. Down side, LAST MISHA SIGHTING FOR A WHILE.

8D Dean! I do not know the reference (yet), but you are ace for naming things (now never do it again).

The little things of bleeding humanity in Cass: he says Dean’s name twice in quick succession to get his attention. And a tiny bit petulant. He’s slowly losing his boys. ;A;

The kid playing the older son looks far too old in the face to be playing a mid-teen. Like he’s a really short 30-year-old.

WOOBIE!CASS. ;A; AND HIS VOICE CRACKED. SOBBING.

EMOTIONAL TORMENT. THIS WHOLE EPISODE.

Or does it already exist and someone needs to point me to it?

Getting too close? YOU WERE BARELY AROUND, CASS.

Maybe the problem I’m experiencing here is going through a million episodes at once. 16 episodes in and you do wind up seeing that Cass is there half the time. And the interactions are stagnant and not really one-on-one, and you can barely count the time travel episode.

So any “getting too attached” things just seem….WHEN WAS THERE TIME?! The bench, the initial meet-up, the astral phase, the torture session, and up until the torture session, it’s been fleeting in those one-on-one moments. So you better have been watching Dean (and Sam) the entire time, Cass, or else I’m calling foul. Because maybe you were having your character-brooding off-screen, because you mention doubt once and now you’re in serious doubt mode—

Ah, fuck this.